i am ready to quit life

tonight in bible study, i talked with the girls about a sermon my pastor gave on easter. taken from i corinthians 15.... basically because of the resurrection we should live life differently and be willing to risk everything in life for the gospel of christ. i haven't been able to stop thinking about this. how do i do this now, what does this mean for my life today?

i am ready to quit my life, risk everything and live like this, but i haven't figured out how. 

i was born ready to go... wherever. i love going places, meeting new people and seeing new things. i love change. i know what i want to do... i did it in africa almost two years ago. for three months, i lived life at the center of the Lord's will for my life, did things way beyond myself, and witnessed miracles that only happen among people bold enough to believe they are going to... being thousands of miles from home, living in light of the resurrection was relatively simple. i want this life back, but that is a year away. living here in the states is much more complex. i have to finish school but i refuse to live another moment on my own. 

i realized last week how different i have been this semester, i have not been myself. i have not made time for the things that are important to me, i have not finished everything with excellence, i have not made the most of opportunities given to me, what is more... few of the things that have consumed my time this semester have eternal value. i have failed. i get that school and work is important but i have trouble seeing the purpose at times. 

i will choose today to act like a child of God in light of the resurrection. i don't know how to do this while studying for my finals tomorrow, but i am convinced that there is no life outside of his big story.