what now?

i saw the face of jesus in a little orphan girl

she was standing in the corner on the other side of the world

and i heard the voice of jesus gently whisper to my heart

didn't you say you wanted to find me,

well here i am, here you are

so what now

what will you do, now that you found me

what will you to with this treasure you found

i know i may not look like what you expected,

but if you remember, this is right where i said i would be

you found me

what now

come and know, come and know

know me now, come and know me.

what now?

so, i am not a huge fan of stephen curtis chapman... but these words get me. for two different reasons. first, the little orphan girl that he talks about in this song, is now my cousin, Orly. she no longer lives on the other side of the world, and she has people around her who love her. they saw the face of jesus in her, paid a ransom to the chinese government and brought her home.

so what now?

what do i do to answer the call, i have seen jesus on the other side of world, in pairs of white beady eyes shining from beneath black faces. what do i do with that? how do i answer my call? i know that adoption is not the answer for me right now, but what do i do to respond?

it is becoming more and more clear that i am going back to africa this summer. maybe not permanently right now, but at least for the summer. i got a call from a friend a few weeks ago, she wanted to get together. we did, last week. in the midst of conversation, she told me about a very small missions team that her and her husband are praying about forming. they are asking four people to join them for a few weeks working with a team they served on for a year in Tunisia. Their dear friends and mentors from their hometown, her sister... and me. wow.

i have committed to pray about it. i am planning on going back to east africa this summer anyway, to visit molly, anne and a few others in rwanda, maybe gifti & helen in sudan and hopefully joyce's family in kenya. now maybe Tunisia too.